Hi everyone,
My hubby Mel had a birthday last week. We went on a drive and stopped to get lunch. We drove through the countryside. Saw nice fields and farmlands and barns. Also crossed a road called Lois Lane. LOL We had a great time.
The sad part. Earlier this same morning I had gotten a call from Mel's sister. She said that she was told that Mel's oldest daughter, Andrea, only 36 years old was in Arizona on life support. :( That was all that she was told at the time.
Later, after we returned from our drive his other daughter called and said that Andrea had passed away. She had developed a blood clot in her leg that traveled to her lungs, then went to her heart (which had a hole in it) and then to her brain. Mel was heart broken as you could imagine.
We haven't seen any of his kids in years as they really don't keep in contact with him. I have never felt like a step mom to them. I think it is so sad and tragic when family members don't speak to each other. :(
There will be a Celebration of Life for Andrea on the 13th. We hope to be able to put together a few thoughts to have read during the service. I hope that Mel is able to remember a little so we can do this. It is difficult because of the strokes he's had.
I hope they can tape it or make a video and send it to us.
Ok, an update on me..... I am on my second 3 weeks on and one week off cycle of cancer meds. I'm feeling fine right now. I had to be off an extra week because my white blood count (wbc) was low. That means my ability to fight off infections was compromised. I had to stay away from everyone for a while. And I have been real tired a lot. I am hoping it won't happen again this time. If it does, I guess we will lower the dose of the chemo pill. I will have labs done this week to check it.
My mom isn't doing well. I think the only time she really eats or drinks anything is when I am there. She has lost weight. She is so frail and weak. I think she is giving up. I don't know what to think, what to pray for. I think I am being a bit selfish in that I am wanting her to hang in there a while more because my sister needs to be in an adult care home or facility that can handle her and her many mental, emotional and physical problems. And be there for her. Right now she is in a hospital. They are trying to find a place for her. It is not easy because of her past. If she had to come up here because mom is 'going' then she would be discharged from the hospital. Then I would have to take her in. She is a 24/7 crisis in motion. I can't deal with that again. :(
I'm sorry this post is so full of sad things.
I know Heavenly Father is here for me. Gosh, without that knowledge I don't know what I'd do. I know He loves me and will strengthen me. I just need to give it all to Him. I need to say Thy will be done, not mine. That is difficult sometimes.
Please pray for us my dear friends. God Bless
