My hubby Mel had a birthday last week. We went on a drive and stopped to get lunch. We drove through the countryside. Saw nice fields and farmlands and barns. Also crossed a road called Lois Lane. LOL We had a great time.
The sad part. Earlier this same morning I had gotten a call from Mel's sister. She said that she was told that Mel's oldest daughter, Andrea, only 36 years old was in Arizona on life support. :( That was all that she was told at the time.
Later, after we returned from our drive his other daughter called and said that Andrea had passed away. She had developed a blood clot in her leg that traveled to her lungs, then went to her heart (which had a hole in it) and then to her brain. Mel was heart broken as you could imagine.
We haven't seen any of his kids in years as they really don't keep in contact with him. I have never felt like a step mom to them. I think it is so sad and tragic when family members don't speak to each other. :(
There will be a Celebration of Life for Andrea on the 13th. We hope to be able to put together a few thoughts to have read during the service. I hope that Mel is able to remember a little so we can do this. It is difficult because of the strokes he's had.
I hope they can tape it or make a video and send it to us.
Ok, an update on me..... I am on my second 3 weeks on and one week off cycle of cancer meds. I'm feeling fine right now. I had to be off an extra week because my white blood count (wbc) was low. That means my ability to fight off infections was compromised. I had to stay away from everyone for a while. And I have been real tired a lot. I am hoping it won't happen again this time. If it does, I guess we will lower the dose of the chemo pill. I will have labs done this week to check it.
My mom isn't doing well. I think the only time she really eats or drinks anything is when I am there. She has lost weight. She is so frail and weak. I think she is giving up. I don't know what to think, what to pray for. I think I am being a bit selfish in that I am wanting her to hang in there a while more because my sister needs to be in an adult care home or facility that can handle her and her many mental, emotional and physical problems. And be there for her. Right now she is in a hospital. They are trying to find a place for her. It is not easy because of her past. If she had to come up here because mom is 'going' then she would be discharged from the hospital. Then I would have to take her in. She is a 24/7 crisis in motion. I can't deal with that again. :(
I'm sorry this post is so full of sad things.
I know Heavenly Father is here for me. Gosh, without that knowledge I don't know what I'd do. I know He loves me and will strengthen me. I just need to give it all to Him. I need to say Thy will be done, not mine. That is difficult sometimes.
Jesus loves us more that we can ever know. So much so that He was willing to suffer and die to save us from physical and spiritual death.
The physical, mental, emotional and spiritual anguish that He went through for us is beyond our ability to understand. He suffered all the things that we suffer in these ways so that he would know how we feel when we suffer and how to succor or help us when we needed it.
I am so grateful for His sacrifice for me. For His atoning for my sins and for His love. Im grateful for His birth, life and death and what it means for me and all of us.
HE IS RISEN. HE LIVES! And because He lives we too shall live again. What a great gift. Eternal life.
Well, spring is officially here. Here in western Washington it isn't much different than winter or fall. LOL
There is Skagit County we have the Tulip Festival. It is cool. Tulips and daffodils galore. Farms of them as far as the eye can see. :)
Maybe someday we can go see them. Here are a couple of pics from Google of our flowers.
Aren't they lovely?
Now the update. Last Wednesday I started my treatment. Two pills that I have to take until they do the job. One is called Ibrance. It wasn't available when I had the breast cancer 12 years ago. It is the 'chemo' pill. It works different than the regular bad chemo. Instead of going all over your entire body and making you feel lousy this med targets the breast cancer wherever it may be and knocks it out. The breast cancer is in my lungs. It is not lung cancer. That is different. This pill is not suppose to have the bad side effects that regular chemo has.
The other pill is Letrozole. It is an estrogen blocking pill. Estrogen is what this cancer eats to grow. There will be a few side effects though, I have been told with the Ibrance. But they are mild. One is fatigue. Well, I won't know if it effects me that way since I am already so exhausted all the time anyway. lol The usual things that are listed for side effects like nausea, dizziness, diarrhea, vomiting and all that fun stuff are possible too.
I have been a little off balance but I will survive. :)
The estrogen blocking pill could cause hormonal problems they say. I don't know if that will happen as I am way past the hot flashes and etc stage. :)
Anyway the first pill is taken every day for 3 weeks then off for 1 week, then start again. The other is everyday, no stopping.
Then on day 14 I need to do labs to see if it is working and now my white blood cell count is. If it gets low I would be less able to fight infections.
Ok enough of that boring stuff :)
We have found a place for my husband to go so he can be taken care of and so I can take care of just me. Please pray that the paperwork can be done quickly and he can get settled soon, ok?
I am a christian. I love reading the scriptures. I love discussing doctrinal topics. I like the rustic mountain life. Primitive crafts and decor. And I am totally addicted to crocheting and loom knitting. Winter is my favorite time of year. I like sitting by the fireplace with a cup of hot chocolate. I also love the smell of bread baking. We used to live in the Uinta mountains in northern Utah. It was lovely there and I miss so much.