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Tuesday, February 14, 2017


Hi all..The procedure went just fine. I tiny bit of pain but that's it. :) They took at least a liter/ 4 cups of fluid out. It was yellow, that is not unusual. Seemed kinda gross to me to have yellow fluid in lungs. And that's all I will say about that. lol I am breathing better now. Not perfectly but better. Then I got some juice and chicken noodle soup. :)

Friday will be my appt with the cancer Dr to hear results of all the tests and to know for sure what we are dealing with and what the plan of attack is.

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.

I hope you are all having a nice Valentine's Day. Take care

Monday, February 13, 2017


Hi there, well tomorrow (Tuesday) I get to go to the hospital and get a procedure done that will remove the fluid that has collected in the pleura around my right lung. I was going to show a picture from Google but they all looked a little worse than it actually is. The procedure is called Thoracentesis.

I would have to sit in a chair and lean forward with my arms on a pillow on a table and they would stick a long needle in the back off to the side between the ribs. So I get to wear a lovely hospital gown on top and keep my regular clothes on the bottom. :) It takes about 20 mins to 30 mins. Then after they need to keep an eye on me for about an hour. They need to see if more fluid builds up and if it does how quick it does.

Then it goes to pathology to have it checked for cancer cells. Then they can tell what type of cancer. This they can tell right away. They also have to take a little longer to examine it to tell what stage it is in. I have a friend that is taking me and bringing me home.

Then when I get back its right to taking care of my hubby. I talked to a lady today and she is going to start checking around to find a place for him to live. Please pray that is works outs sooner than later. :)

Gotta run. Lots to do and have to get a good sleep tonight. Wish me luck on that. lol

I hope all of you have a.....

Friday, February 10, 2017


Well....I have been sitting on this news for a couple of weeks because I wasn't sure  what to say. This may be a bit long.

Rewind to April 2004. My husband had his first of several strokes. We had to move into town from the mountains, my favorite place. And my son was doing basic training in the Army National Guard.

Fast forward a bit to September of 2004....I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Had chemo that wiped me out. Surgery that left the 'girls' lop-sided, (they're both still there just not exactly twins anymore). More chemo. Then radiation that was a piece of cake compared to the chemo. It took an entire year to get through it. Then I also had to take an estrogen blocking pill for 5 years to starve off any cancer cells that were still hanging around. And my son got deployed to Iraq just after Christmas. He was very worried about me and didn't want to go. But he went and we emailed every day except when they had communication black outs.
So life went on. In the mean time my husband had several more strokes, kidney failure and went on dialysis. He is also diabetic and we have problems with high blood sugar. I have become a 24/7 CNA because there are many things that he can not do for himself. And if you don't know what a CNA does google it.  Or NAC they are called now. Everything they get to do I do. EVERYTHING. I have been doing this for a couple of years.

Also mom is in a nursing home and gets anxiety attacks and calls me every 5 mins of day or night sometimes. And sister is in a home, finally, but still has problems that I have to deal with. Whew! Makes me tired just thinking of all this.

Twelve years later January-February 2017...it's baaaaaack.
Few months ago in September I had pneumonia and it just kept wearing me down. And it wouldn't go away. Had a second xray in January. It didn't look good so the Dr ordered a CT. There is fluid around one lung and a few tumors scattered about both lungs. I have a procedure set for next Tuesday to get some or all of the fluid drained. If we are lucky there will be enough to examine and find out type of cancer and what stage it is. Cancer Dr is saying 95% sure that it is the breast cancer again. After we find out then he will start treatment.

He said that I won't have chemo or radiation this time. He will have me take two pills on a daily basis for a while. Ok no chemo, that's ok with me. No radiation, that's ok with me too. I just need to ask more about how the meds work, how long, and other stuff I don't remember at the moment. I am not really worried about it. I guess I should be. I wasn't worried the first time. All I asked then when I found out was ...ok so what do we do next?

My only problem is that I need to rest and get my strength back. Taking care of my husband has wore me out. And I need to get him to understand that I can't do it anymore. He has to go to a nursing home so they can take care of him. I need to not have any " have to's"  in my life now. Like when he wants something I HAVE TO get it. Or when he has a "accident" I HAVE TO take care of him.

I need to be able to not do something if I don't feel well enough to do it. I need to be able to make appts without having to make them around his dialysis schedule or worry about leaving him home alone for too long if the Dr has only one appt time available.

Ok, I'm done. Sorry this is so long and so disjointed and that all I am doing is whining (sp?). And sorry this is horrible for some of you to hear. Or that it makes you upset. I guess I just needed to get it all out. 

Besides all this....life is good. God is good. And I am glad that He is always there for me. :) I don't know how anyone could get through something like this without Him. It would be so hard for them. :(

Thank you for stopping by and always being here for me too :) I love to read your comments. It makes my day. And I love stopping by to see you too. My sweet talented blogging friends. OXO

 Take care. Have a great weekend. God Bless

Friday, February 3, 2017


Hi everyone, I know that Groundhog's Day was on the 2nd. But remember the movie where the day kept repeating it's self? :)

Those of you who know me, how I love winter and the cold and the snow will probably wonder if I am ill or something when I say this...but I am ready for spring. I really am not a fan of the winters up here. One can just get chilled to the bone because of the humidity. I am use to dry winters like in Utah and Wyoming where I have lived most of my life. We have very cold winters there. Twenty or more below zero at times and it is ok. I'm comfortable. Really. 

I have never gotten pneumonia before and I have been dealing with it since the end of September (along with other things I will tell you about soon) I think because of this weather. I hope all of that made since. Or at least, some of it.

So anyway this winter stuff has to go. Shame on you Phil for seeing your shadow!

Not much else to say today. Been just a bit run down and worn out from taking care of my husband while fighting this cold. 
I will say Happy Spring early. :)

This is one of my favorite bible verses. :)
God Bless